Uber long time since I wrote anything here. In fact, I haven posted anything meaty since 10 Sept. My thoughts are flying off in different directions and being the sanguine that I am, I'm still trying to piece it all together with the determination of a melancholy.

To give due credit to God, I have to date back to 18th September 2008, a seemingly normal Thurs night/Fri morning. What started as a let's-walk-Jean-back-home thing turned into a fast & furious 2 hour conversation about our visions and dreams at my void deck... dreams I had kept buried and forgotten under the whole junk of emotional mess (which explains why I'm gg for the "Adversity Quotient and Emotional Quotient elective later).

Nigel and Alex - it's near impossible not to get caught up in the fervency when those 2 start. And I'm continually amazed by how speaking about issues can bring to light so so much I am previously not aware of. Like my passion for the arts, specifically the visual. Perhaps it was my dabbling with Adobe Creative Suite that started it all but man, how I would love to be able to draw like this or paint like that or come up with something totally mindblowing or to have time and mobility at my hands, to have freedom for travelling and more dreams etc...

And almost every sentence I uttered that day was punctuated by Nigel's "Why Not?"

That was, without a doubt, one life-changing conversation I will never forget.

Didnt really start on the planning until after the weekend of the Arise & Build pledge. That night, together with 23,999 others, I made a vow to be obedient, after being reminded of 1 Samuel 15:22 And I was able to finally let go on 5th Nov, the one area in my life I've been guarding for the past 4 years. Finally, I trust Him enough to take care of me, after years of fighting and trying to make things right on my own.

I wont go on further cos I'm still in the midst of planning. It's pretty mind-blowing what God can do for you if you would simply let go and let Him take over the reins.

However, first things first, I need to find a new source of cashflow. Fast.

After 4 years of being in church, I can finally believe that everything will be alright.

Everything.