I really should get down to doing up my inspiration wall, right after I start training.

Isaiah 41:10
"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

Philippians 4:19
"And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."

Philippians 1:6
"being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;

My enthusiastic td&h partner emailed me this after bachata prac today :) Totally heart the choreo! Esp the shines! Sensual and not the least bit obscene like what I see at USQ.

Which makes me wonder if I'm turning into a snob since I've absolutely no qualms on walking off mid-dance in bachata... but who won't if u feel it's offensive rite? I don't see why I have to tolerate bad-leads with half-a**ed moves who think they look hot just cos they're grinding to bachata. Like hello, stop butchering my fave songs and worse, give the dance a bad rep.

Ultimately, it's an intimate close contact dance... one that I will only be comfortable dancing with a selected few in class. It's not because they're good leads (with the exception of Zee, of course) but rather, I know the men in the team have good hearts and no ill-intentions but to perform well... Definitely can't say the same for the crowd at USQ.

Uber long time since I wrote anything here. In fact, I haven posted anything meaty since 10 Sept. My thoughts are flying off in different directions and being the sanguine that I am, I'm still trying to piece it all together with the determination of a melancholy.

To give due credit to God, I have to date back to 18th September 2008, a seemingly normal Thurs night/Fri morning. What started as a let's-walk-Jean-back-home thing turned into a fast & furious 2 hour conversation about our visions and dreams at my void deck... dreams I had kept buried and forgotten under the whole junk of emotional mess (which explains why I'm gg for the "Adversity Quotient and Emotional Quotient elective later).

Nigel and Alex - it's near impossible not to get caught up in the fervency when those 2 start. And I'm continually amazed by how speaking about issues can bring to light so so much I am previously not aware of. Like my passion for the arts, specifically the visual. Perhaps it was my dabbling with Adobe Creative Suite that started it all but man, how I would love to be able to draw like this or paint like that or come up with something totally mindblowing or to have time and mobility at my hands, to have freedom for travelling and more dreams etc...

And almost every sentence I uttered that day was punctuated by Nigel's "Why Not?"

That was, without a doubt, one life-changing conversation I will never forget.

Didnt really start on the planning until after the weekend of the Arise & Build pledge. That night, together with 23,999 others, I made a vow to be obedient, after being reminded of 1 Samuel 15:22 And I was able to finally let go on 5th Nov, the one area in my life I've been guarding for the past 4 years. Finally, I trust Him enough to take care of me, after years of fighting and trying to make things right on my own.

I wont go on further cos I'm still in the midst of planning. It's pretty mind-blowing what God can do for you if you would simply let go and let Him take over the reins.

However, first things first, I need to find a new source of cashflow. Fast.

After 4 years of being in church, I can finally believe that everything will be alright.

Everything.