Listening to Corrinne May now... Jazzy mood. Perfect for this blog entry...
Now everytime I'm feeling low or discouraged, I just have to think & concentrate on 2 things:
- PC having sucha strong spirit even thou he is a baby Christian
- RZ & Angela's story abt vows... awww...
I'm so gonna go on a fast tml... at this stage, I'm willing to do anything to get all 3 of my relatives out of danger.
- San Jiu & Stephanie, I pray that u'll get well soon & that u'll not suffer financial consequences or any other implications when u 2 finally come home to us. Rest well & may God watch over u as u sleep tonite...
- Ah Po, please hang on & may u have the courage to go thru everyday with a positive attitude & I pray that the lung cancer will go into recession & that u'll live on for waaay more than 2 years. I still wish for u to see your great-grandchildren & I believe deep down, u wish so too. Thou I understand u wan to join Ye Ye, but please hang on. Please go for chemotherapy as it will eradicate the cancer. Most importantly of all, please dont lose hope & faith that a miracle may happen. Rest well & may God watch over u to ensure a peaceful sleep tonite... everynite.
Mei got me this little clay-wooden keychain thingy =) I'll hang it in CBLC as a reminder of her love for me. Thanks girl!!! Thanks for being there for me during the hard times & for sharing my joy during the good ones. Thanks for bring me to church, thanks for being my Mei. Thanks for everything. Sigh... I'll do it properly on ur bdae again =) This little paragraph dont justifies.
Seriously thinking if I shd take a vow... But Angela actually heard a rhema from God. I didnt. But taking a vow & sticking to it will make me focus on & obey God, something I'm not very good at. Men... dont seem impt rite now. I mean, there's nothing in it for me if I am to enter ANYTHING even remotely meaningful now... no, not even with him. Honestly speaking, I'll be very xim tia if I were to let him go FOR GOOD... Some invisible string will be tugging away like mad ard my heart & I'll have difficulty finding it to release the knot... cos sometimes, I cant even feel it. He told me he's been toying with the idea of going overseas for studies. Cant say that I'm very enthu abt it but yah, if we're not meant to be together, no matter how much we like each other or dont wanna let go, then there's no point is there?
God, it's up to u now. My life is really in Your hands. I trust in You to show me Your way. Thank You for giving me peace, for being there.