Life's been boring... Except for the semestral module bidding which almost made me tear my black-red-brown hair out (long story... heck it's falling out anyway... Again, long story). But results are looking grt so let's hope & pray for a fantastic learning year ahead for everyone, amen?

Let's see wat's been happening AROUND me then:

1) 2 frens just broke up w their other halves, one just last nite, the other last week. I'm more concerned abt A.M. than C.Y. simply cos he was in love & she wasnt really. Still, I pray the both of them can adjust well to their new situation & I pray that they'll find someone who they really love & who reciprocrates their feelings.
2) Another fren just got together w another fren (all the best guys! U REALLY took us all by surprise) Oh, & one of my freshies too. The fast ones.
3) Another fren got ENGAGED... Still, I'm happy for her thou not close.

Somehow... I forgot wat it feels like to be loved by that special someone. To be hugged & wishing he'll nvr let go. To be kissed & yearning for more. To miss him every time I'm away from him. To love him w an intensity that seems to consume me... Guess I'll nvr know again. Well, mayb not yet. So, not THAT bothered by my singlehood & still lack of a more interesting life that everyone thot ALL singles have. (Puh-leeeeeze... flings are so passe & a total waste of time. Dont anybody get it?)

New msn nick: Somehow they don't exist... Cos they're too good to be true.

The male character in Sweet November. A hard-hearted man who falls in love w a sweet grl who's all out to turn him into a better person within a month. Man is converted, grl is dying. Shit. FANTASTIC... I'm now griped w a fear of being all alone. Martin told me b4 he signed off that "they" DO exist. Somehow I don't have faith anymore. Prob cos I've been having faith in the wrong guy all this time. Receiving promises, having them being FORGOTTEN, not to say broken, being disappointed cos he repeated those same shit again & again & again for an uncountable number of times. Not cos I hate to remember petty stuff like that. But it just hits me, like FINALLY, that I've just been tolerating a lot of shit from ONE guy without knowing it. & it may turn out to NOT be worth it in the end. Simply cos he dun get it.

He even warned me b4 of what kinda guy he is. & I still have faith in him that he'll change, if not for me, then for someone else. Not cos I wan him to change, but he wants to. Does that same unwavering faith still stands today? No.

It's so tiring to spend the better half of a beautiful Thursday morning crying my eyes out at sucha hopeless situation. High time I shd extinguish this little torch I'm carrying I guess. & guess he dun need to know abt this... for wat difference wd it make anyway?

Jean, it's time to seriously move on. No point letting invisible strings tie u down to someone like THAT. It's just not worth it, is it?

Is it?