Da Men (from left) Marcus, Wenyao, Wenyan, Zhiyang, Bona, Lester, Renhong, Charles, Eugene, Samson, Sunder & Lee Qing

But there're 2 more ppl missing rite... okok Akan Datang =)

& Da Laydeez!!! (from left) Ying Jin, Clarissa, Lee Ping, Elim, Kaiting, Joan, Carol, me, Mingli, Wendy, Rachel & Kai Lyn =)

Gerard & me!!! *Note his very smart casual attire w punky hair... Dude u look SOOO much better than last year's gear man...*

Michael & me!!! *Note his goofy grin*

Okok!!! Here're the photos I like teehee..... Scroll down... =)

CBLC!!! Looks like everyone's here...

Executive Shot: Renhong the "Right-Hand Man/Bouncer", Mr Marcus Tan the "Zhong Chai" & Jean the "Mi Shu" --- actually, we're the Northerners =)

Da 4 babes muahaha!!!: (from right) Gladys, Ashley, Cheryl & me

"Burger King ah Burger King!!! Taco Bell ah Taco Bell!!!"

Mr "Seh" & Ms "Sultry" *u wont believe the no. of retakes we took to get to this pose... bleh*

Let's TANGO, Baby!!! *rose courtesy of Womba's table centrepiece*

Lastly, Eve & me... Love her gown.. & I love this pix cos of my CASCADING CROWNING HEAD OF BROWN CURLS!!! I miss my curls!!! *sobz*

13th maincom: (top from left) Weiling, Chewy, Mel, KokKeong, Weisoon, Ernest (omg), Victor, Zhiyang, Michael, Gerard, Ange, me, Shiko & Baojiao

WELCOME TO THE CBLC FAMILY!!!

Ok… Let me tell u a story since I'm bored at home now...

During organic lab on Monday, while waiting to use the rotary evaporator (which loves us a lot since it forced us to linger ard it for abt an hour), Yummy asked me “how’d I find Ground.state? Nice guy rite???" & I was like “Ground.state ah… Nice guy, gentleman, can be good fren… y leh?” & he was like “Orh no lah I was thinking want to matchmake u 2 anot… EH! Want anot???” & I was like “hahaha!!! Y me?” & he was like “No lah… Eh y not? Haha so how??” Me: “Hahaha dun be dumb can!!! Wat matchmake!!! I dun need to be matchmade by anyone ah!!! This type of thing cannot rush one lor!!!” & Yummy laughed "Yah THAT'S Y I step in mah!!! Eh so how?"

& the conversation went on until Yummy had to continue on w his experiment.

By this time I was laughing away cos this sounded like some ah-beng’s-fren-dun-dare-to-approach-grl-so-sent-ah-beng-as-representative scenario. Like so duh!!!

(& it so happened that Ground.state IS the guy I was commenting abt at the Chem Maj Sentosa outing =P )

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CBLC duty @ YIH. Excited.state was chilling ard w his laptop. Yummy came in to ask again whether I’m interested *rolls eyes* then proceeded to print stuff. At which point, Excited.state made it known that he heard everything *like so???* He came over to borrow the supervisor’s comp & while I was hovering ard waiting to use it, guess wat? He very conveniently looped his arm ard me, grabbed me onto his lap, & continued typing w me on his lap. Struggled like hell to TRY to get out b4 Yummy came over again… but all who have seen Excited.state can see it’s a losing battle.

Anyway, Yummy came to say bye & saw everything (at which point I was laughing @ the RIDICULOUS situation) & POOF, suddenly I was free *rolls eyes* Hurried after Yummy to tell him there’s nothing going on between Excited.state & me (I mean, looking at the context of our conversations, I dun think it’s nice to let him presume this lor. Other times I cant be bothered) & he was like “Orh so u wan me to tell Ground.state issit??? Hahaha” & I was like “NO LOR!!! I’m telling YOU now”

(upon questioning the subject, the subject claimed that I dun have a seat so he just volunteered his lap. U need more work on the excuse, buster!!!)

Come Tuesday, I bumped into Grouns.state & he was just gave me a cursory cold greeting. I was like “huh?” cos it’s pretty diff from last Sat’s attitude. & later in the LT, was chatting w Chris & saw him looking over at us with THAT weird look... Shit...

& NOW, come to think abt it, I think Ground.state & frens prob thot I’m some kinda flirty bitch who’s trying to hint to Yummy that I’m not interested in Ground.state cos HEY LOOK I’m associated w another guy now. Oh or worse, that I’m LOOSE!!! Like fark man… There goes my reputation…

All bcos of wat Excited.state did… WAT THE HELL!!! ULTIMATE possessive behaviour lor!!! Ci Wo De Dou Fu!!!

I noe I cant be bothered w a relationship now but really, I’m more concerned w my reputation. Anyway, if Yummy & Ground.state find that I’m that bad a person, then there’s nothing I can do also. Trying to defend my case will be like SOOO loser & pathetic. If ppl wanna come up w a conclusion based on some shit Excited.state did, there’s nothing I can do.

Anyway, everything's in God's hands.

Listening to Corrinne May now... Jazzy mood. Perfect for this blog entry...

Now everytime I'm feeling low or discouraged, I just have to think & concentrate on 2 things:

1. PC having sucha strong spirit even thou he is a baby Christian
2. RZ & Angela's story abt vows... awww...

I'm so gonna go on a fast tml... at this stage, I'm willing to do anything to get all 3 of my relatives out of danger.

1. San Jiu & Stephanie, I pray that u'll get well soon & that u'll not suffer financial consequences or any other implications when u 2 finally come home to us. Rest well & may God watch over u as u sleep tonite...
2. Ah Po, please hang on & may u have the courage to go thru everyday with a positive attitude & I pray that the lung cancer will go into recession & that u'll live on for waaay more than 2 years. I still wish for u to see your great-grandchildren & I believe deep down, u wish so too. Thou I understand u wan to join Ye Ye, but please hang on. Please go for chemotherapy as it will eradicate the cancer. Most importantly of all, please dont lose hope & faith that a miracle may happen. Rest well & may God watch over u to ensure a peaceful sleep tonite... everynite.

Mei got me this little clay-wooden keychain thingy =) I'll hang it in CBLC as a reminder of her love for me. Thanks girl!!! Thanks for being there for me during the hard times & for sharing my joy during the good ones. Thanks for bring me to church, thanks for being my Mei. Thanks for everything. Sigh... I'll do it properly on ur bdae again =) This little paragraph dont justifies.

Seriously thinking if I shd take a vow... But Angela actually heard a rhema from God. I didnt. But taking a vow & sticking to it will make me focus on & obey God, something I'm not very good at. Men... dont seem impt rite now. I mean, there's nothing in it for me if I am to enter ANYTHING even remotely meaningful now... no, not even with him. Honestly speaking, I'll be very xim tia if I were to let him go FOR GOOD... Some invisible string will be tugging away like mad ard my heart & I'll have difficulty finding it to release the knot... cos sometimes, I cant even feel it. He told me he's been toying with the idea of going overseas for studies. Cant say that I'm very enthu abt it but yah, if we're not meant to be together, no matter how much we like each other or dont wanna let go, then there's no point is there?

God, it's up to u now. My life is really in Your hands. I trust in You to show me Your way. Thank You for giving me peace, for being there.

Had a long poem just now *& if anyone bothered to remember wat it means when I blog in poem form......... ok nvm. U wont remember anyway. I mean, who seriously bothers*
& Blogger.com had to get mysteriously redirected to the main menu mid-blog. Kns. & I'm too emotionally drained to do anything abt it. So F it.

Prob God's trying to tell me to snap out of it.

Ok I'll try.

TRY.

Hmmm... bored on this Saturday afternoon in CBLC. Ernest burned the Corrinne May CD for me... AWWWW so sweet =) He even scanned in the lyrics sheet & the interior & exterior covers of the original. THANKS SWEETIE *virtual muak* teehee =D

Laughed my head off while watching 50 First Dates on PC02 bwahahahah!!! There's oso Garfield!!! Ok I think the dog they got to act as Odie is a mongrel but it's DAMN guai lor!!! Man, it's so adorable. *In love w an onscreen puppy*

CBLC Orientation next Saturday @ Sentosa. Games... games... wat to play other than dog & bone, name games & forfeit games??? (PS: water frisbee & volleyball r "free-time" games so dun count) There's gotta be forfeits otherwise no fun muahahaha.... But trying not to copy last year's leh... Hmmm... *brainstorm brainstorm*

Sheesh... wonder if have to budget anot hahaha...

*back to organic revision... urgh*

Later.

"CBLC... The place where I call my home..."

Some things to look forward to in sch:
1) FRENS!!! Missed the whole load of them
2) CBLC!!! Let's RAAAAWK this place, guys!!!
3) Studying for all my modules *Jean, JIA YOOOOU*

Monday: 9am-5pm LAB...
Tuesday & Friday: 0800-1000 & 1600-1800... Cok timetable rite!!!
Wednesday: 1200-1400
Saturday: 1000-1300
Thursday: FREE DAY

And that's all... No no I'm not kidding. THAT"S REALLY ALL. Tut balloting haven start thou. But even that is 1400-1500 every Tuesday.

So far I've been to 3 lectures... PH2110 1st lecture, some parts are darn common-sensical, others are just plain baffling. I dun even noe whether to take S/U anot. Seh... GEK2501's brainless lecturer gave us bright blue background slides w yellow font as notes on IVLE... in a freaking pdf format. So bloody friendly. Had to type out the whole damn thing in Words. So much effort so offered to print 2 more copies for Jingyi & Huiling. Haha cant wait to have them join the CBLC family =)

Decided to go up to www.wholivesnearyou.com to clear my inbox. I cant believe how useful this little thing is... for warning me of just how many creeps, losers & "wenyao"s Yishun seems to be brimming with. Gerard said it's interesting a few mths back so I just whack & sign-up... Now, I just think it's another excuse for SDU-potential ppl to internet-date b4 it's too late... HEY!!! Rhymes! hahaha

Examples of losers:

This Bernard guy actually said "yo, wan 2 make frien i oso live same neighbourhood"
Like DUH?!?!?! Then y the hell wd the website be called "who lives near u" if u dun live near me man... HELLO Army Boy wake up your idea can! Sheesh...

Then there's this 20yrold "dont drink pls... not good for your health. k? ^_^dont wear white when playing water games k? u noe u noe.. got many se lang ard.. be careful hor.. i can protect u! :0" smartass by the name of Liguang... whose interest happens to be "ogle at girls... kidding lah" Just HOW transparent can u get man...

& not to forget the "which block are u staying ah"s & "u seem interesting. wanna be frens?"s Like I'm sucha airhead to disclose my block. Think again, Potential- Stalker(s). *so bhb*

It's my blog & I bitch if I want to...

Surprisingly, all the 17-20 yr old "xiao di di"s have good grammar, are polite & dont come across sounding like a maggot that'll make u cringe. But still, "xiao di di"s. Enuff said.

Oh yah went to Sentosa on Sat to get my Islander card (FINALLY...) Dragged Martin along since he needed to "top up" his tan anyway hahaha. So took a quiet little spot at Palawan & tan there like 2 vain bookworms. Saw 2 AngMohs tanning topless... Saggy tits yucks. Pui. Haha & we saw a cute little poodle bouncing away on the sand & swimming... So cute. I WAN A SILKY TERRIER!!! bleh...

Itching for some entertainment so decided to take the photos. Anyway, figured here's one of the last chances to take photos w this Hamtaro at Sentosa b4 he flies off next year to HamtaroLand & produce another Hamtaro single... haiz.

Here're 2 photos below. Njoy!!!

Okiiiieeee... Someone's gonna kill me but it's too late! I ALREADY BLOGGED THIS! muahahaha... Hamtaro looks so Jappy & 18-yr-oldish here despite squinting like an 80-yr-old. Hai-Chee-Sze!~!~

Ok another attempt at looking quirky but we just end up looking.... retarded... & if u magnify this by clicking it & looking at our expressions at close range... u'll realise that we actually look MORE retarded BWAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!! Sheesh. *pls dun kill me*

Went to grt lengths to get this bdae grl out =P But we did it!!! Small gathering but nvrtheless, I hope it's memorable for jie mei =) Got her this really gorgeous Fossil watch that she fell in love w at sight... hahah. May Angels watch over u dearie!!! Happy Bdae!!!

Wah lau wat u 2 doing?!?!?! I think need to get one more wheel for them man... But cute rite heehee... My fave babies =)

Hahaha... last nite went to Zouk w Mei but we splitted to find our frens. Man... SOOO many NUS ppl there lor. Cant wait to see all of them in sch again next week YEAH!!! =P Think everyone wanted to just let their hair down & party for one last time b4 sch starts taking a toil on us. Besides, the laydeez have free entry. Thank God for that.

Oh yah, when I bounced into the group, everyone was like "EH JEEEAN!!! YOU DYE YOUR HAIR AH?!?! EH! CAN SEE CAN SEE!" Then only JaNehNeh say "Wah lau see wat see!!! I thot it's damn red lor!" Haiz... apparently, ppl cant read English on Msn.

K, it all started w sakaeing w Martin. After which I saw Palty hairdye in the guardian @ J8. So popped in... but came out w the Garnier Nutrisse Natea: Paprika box at a cheap $9.95 (budget budget heh heh) Figured since my hair is SOOO bloody resistant to dye I BETTER get a bright colour. This light mahogany copper brown............. which led to me being in AGONY. Y? Cos the top of my head is like BRILLIANT red lor!!! KNS... & the rest of my head still looks black w a bright red sheen. REALLY CHAO AH LIAN. Hated it. Therefore the nick: *~Screaming RedHead~*

So the day after, went to get another colour w Mei. By this time I super damn xian ji phua. (I mean who the hell will buy some hairdye with some lao auntie fronting the box??? Fantastic appeal man... I'm SOOO gonna buy it) I'm missing my black hair like mad & I immediately pounced on this violet-brown which Mei steered me away from. This time, we chose this Feria 3D Colour: Pear Blossom. Colour damn nice on the box. This pinky beige brown. BUT apparently I'll get it only if my hair is totally black cos my hair now is some reddish-brown... pui.

OHOH!!! Must give my Mei CREDIT!!! Cos she managed to dye my hair in 15mins flat despite flicking dye all over me & the floor muahahah! Then u all noe my hair damn long lor (trimming tml) Power. THANKS MEI!!! *hugz* *muak*

Kinda still miss my black hair. Haiz...

The Virgin Ah-Lian

Life's been boring... Except for the semestral module bidding which almost made me tear my black-red-brown hair out (long story... heck it's falling out anyway... Again, long story). But results are looking grt so let's hope & pray for a fantastic learning year ahead for everyone, amen?

Let's see wat's been happening AROUND me then:

1) 2 frens just broke up w their other halves, one just last nite, the other last week. I'm more concerned abt A.M. than C.Y. simply cos he was in love & she wasnt really. Still, I pray the both of them can adjust well to their new situation & I pray that they'll find someone who they really love & who reciprocrates their feelings.
2) Another fren just got together w another fren (all the best guys! U REALLY took us all by surprise) Oh, & one of my freshies too. The fast ones.
3) Another fren got ENGAGED... Still, I'm happy for her thou not close.

Somehow... I forgot wat it feels like to be loved by that special someone. To be hugged & wishing he'll nvr let go. To be kissed & yearning for more. To miss him every time I'm away from him. To love him w an intensity that seems to consume me... Guess I'll nvr know again. Well, mayb not yet. So, not THAT bothered by my singlehood & still lack of a more interesting life that everyone thot ALL singles have. (Puh-leeeeeze... flings are so passe & a total waste of time. Dont anybody get it?)

New msn nick: Somehow they don't exist... Cos they're too good to be true.

The male character in Sweet November. A hard-hearted man who falls in love w a sweet grl who's all out to turn him into a better person within a month. Man is converted, grl is dying. Shit. FANTASTIC... I'm now griped w a fear of being all alone. Martin told me b4 he signed off that "they" DO exist. Somehow I don't have faith anymore. Prob cos I've been having faith in the wrong guy all this time. Receiving promises, having them being FORGOTTEN, not to say broken, being disappointed cos he repeated those same shit again & again & again for an uncountable number of times. Not cos I hate to remember petty stuff like that. But it just hits me, like FINALLY, that I've just been tolerating a lot of shit from ONE guy without knowing it. & it may turn out to NOT be worth it in the end. Simply cos he dun get it.

He even warned me b4 of what kinda guy he is. & I still have faith in him that he'll change, if not for me, then for someone else. Not cos I wan him to change, but he wants to. Does that same unwavering faith still stands today? No.

It's so tiring to spend the better half of a beautiful Thursday morning crying my eyes out at sucha hopeless situation. High time I shd extinguish this little torch I'm carrying I guess. & guess he dun need to know abt this... for wat difference wd it make anyway?

Jean, it's time to seriously move on. No point letting invisible strings tie u down to someone like THAT. It's just not worth it, is it?

Is it?