Bro went for a chalet over the weekend and he met her. Yes her. The 'screw-up of 03/04' as G puts it. Even he and F met her at Union Camp. Well it was a fucked-up situation for me back then but I don't feel embarrassed about it. Heck I even told the some of my JC friends back during the outing.
But it was a timely lesson learnt. If not for that there may have been 1-2 more similar incidents. Once bitten... The shortlist is blank as of now. It has been for quite a while actually. Whether it's self-imposed or not (see My Declaration of Independence post), I must say at least that's one less problem for me.
I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one...

Well congratulations on this vote of self-confidence, fren. & good luck. U're sooo gonna need it, esp AFTER u do a review of wat u call ur love philosophy. Call me a bitch? Your way of dealing w it then. *yawn*

Day ONE!!! Our very own nice green tops!!! No I'm NOT gonna name everyone sheesh...

Fright nite!!! (from left:Adrian, Wendy, Zhiyang, me, Gerard, Huiling, Shuyun Michael, Ange & Weian)

Da ladiez... (from left top row: Joan, Kim, Lee Ping, Carol, Kalyn, Mingli. bottom: Kaiting, Elim, YingJin, Charmaine, Rachel & Clarissa)

& da erm... gays?... (from front: Bona, Wenyan, Weian, Yi Qin, Wenyao, Marcus, Sunder, Samsom, Charles, Lester & Eugene)

Ah BOOOONG AH!!!! Wei se me ni si de na me zao... Ah Bong Ah...

Just before it poured down on us... Another group shot =P

Ok I’ve been pretty MIA the past few weeks. Somehow the Internet was down & I cant photoblog & blah blah blah… dragged on til today. Anyway just feel like talking… & yes, abt Fellowship.
 
U noe how u, unless u’re Miss/Mr Congeniality, just cant connect w some ppl no matter how hard u try? (Then again I may not be trying hard enuff) Hanging out w this bunch of new frens is… I dun noe, weird. I go to church for praises & worship, to try to find God’s purpose for me in life, to learn more abt Him & His words, something I really want to know. Same thing for cgm. I give $$$ not as some charitable act, more like a sacrifice, cos I know a lot can come from that little bit I give every week. I dun feel silly or stupid talking to someone who’s not physically there for me to see, hear or feel. I don’t feel THAT pressurized cos of the fact that I cant speak in tongues thou everyone ard me can during service & cgm (I’m STILL praying for the presence of the Holy Spirit) & God’s always there for me, I know. Surrendering isnt easy at all for someone as stubborn as me but hey, I’ve nvr looked back.
 
With all these comes Fellowship, sorta like a family whom u grow spiritually with? For me, it’s still ultimately connecting with ppl whom u care abt, pray for & yah, worry for. Right now, I can honestly say that I cant bring myself to care for them, much less the other 2. I can pray for them, like how I pray for other non-Christians/unchurched ppl when saying Grace even, or at night b4 I sleep. Think there’s a barrier to me not being able to connect to them on a “frens” level… prob cos I’m more comfortable with making genuine frens FIRST, frens who wont discriminate me for who I am, rather than jump in straight & “Hey! Hi! Yah I’m the fren Jo brought to church! Yah I think I’m going for service next week, yah… see ya!” But somehow, I dun feel like they’re seeing me as just another fren. More like another soul they want to save… which is ultimately what every Christian hopes for—saving of more souls. Spreading of the gospel & more... at least at CHC =P
 
I’m not saying that they’re not gonna care abt me when I’m incorporated into the group, no. I’m not trying to give any negative intonations abt this cell group, waaay no. So… y am I still feeling this way abt these group of ppl who have been praying for me everyday for as long as I can remember? I really appreciate their constant praying for my family to ease off on the persecution. It worked. There’re ppl out there who’re dealing with shit ( & I really mean crap) so I’m really grateful that I’m not. Prob it’s just me. Prob one day, I’ll see & understand the significance & importance of gathering for one hour after every cgm for Fellowship (it still irks me that my mum is worrying abt me while I’m there eating with them...) Prob one day, I wont complain like how I’m complaining now.
 
Ok NOW that I’ve gotten this out of my system, it’s time I go read the gospels. & study my notes. & pray for more fire to come into my spiritual life, understanding of God’s words & to have an open mind.
 
TTFN. Later.

How to make a Jean

Ingredients: 3 parts success 5 parts self-sufficiency 3 parts empathy

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Damn it man the connection is like STILL DOWN over in my room. Piece of shit.
Anyway I'm like SERIOUSLY waaaay behind on my blog updating. So here goes.
Excuse the lengthy exerpt...

Immediately went back home aft Gershon's 21st bdae party to pack my barang. Heng, Weian's dad drove us there; Weian helped me for a while & asked wtf I packed in that oversized Oakley bag. Tendency to overpack when u have big bag ah... Anyway, stayed overnite @ CBLC room on Day -1 so we can be at KR bright & early for Day 0. Gerard was DJ-ing in his "own world" croaking songs until his whole face turned red. Mel, Wendy, Jingyi & I were still mucking up our bright dustbin-green Psycho Tees (cut mine up into a V-necked tank) w f.paint while Weian & Zhiyang were san-nao-jinging abt the mascot shield. We shd do it again guys... the staying overnite bit.

Day 0 Sai-gang Day
Station Master for Cluedo, Fright Nite & Amazing Race. Familiarized ourselves w the areas. Searched out creepy places for Fright Nite. Packed goodie bags. All that last min crap b4 the freshies come tml. Usual.
When I stepped into the lift, I immediately detected that hall smell. Poignant memories came flooding back & more so esp when I stepped into A0515. Esp so on the bed. But they faded off on their own accord. Dun bother. Like wat Gerard used to say, "fark care".

Day 1 Cluedo & Counsellor Item
CAMP STARTS!!! Saw a no of familiar faces. I was jumpy the whole morning. Bounced my way ard. Set up the 3D (mai xiao xiao k) spiderweb w Mel. Got praised yeah =P Rehearsed 1 last time & dressed up for item at nite. Shuyun's dress wasnt the lowest I've worn so I cant figure y she's so worried I'll mind. But heng it's not like those CHAOS-mina-mini-dresses. Yes, the bimbotic brainless teacher role. Wah lau to this date I still remember that drag going "Come on Boss. Do it! Do it!" & "I'm not fat! They're called love handles! When u make love, YOU HOLD!" Bwahahaha!!!

Day 2 Pool games & Fright Nite
Okie had to miss out on pool games thou they're lacking in grl-power in the games. Huiling (she's a total siao charboh man), Shuyun & I were the POWER ghosts (cos we need to go for POWER makeup) Had fun talking to the makeup artist & taking photos of every POWER ghost. Made some new frens. Scared a few freshies... not of my own accord. I just happened to b down w a cold (immunity down since 3M days)& sat w my sari draped on the floor & hair over my face. Had to go back early cos buay tahan liao... f***ing nose kept dripping. Thanks for the care & concern, Cheryl =)

Day 3 Sentosa (Amazing Race & Beach Games)
One of the station masters for one of the stations for A.R. & then it HAD to rain... no wait... POUR is more accurate. KNS. I've nvr been to Sentosa when the weather's this bad man. Total KNS. But we made q a bit of noise doing that funeral procession thingy w Huiling holding the mascot shield & everyone moaning & crying for Ah Bong HAHAHA!!! Damn funny! muahahah!!! The freshies put up a roaringly funny skit xia. Their coordination & production qualities are better than ours lor. So proud of them =P Cant imagine some groups winning but let's not go into that... SPs got to talk to one another! ZY, Michael & Gerard kana hahaha!!!

Day 4 War games, SP Revealing & Chiong Nite
Got wet & dirty... & got burnt. Ange got a black handprint on her face & after I went to top up the bottles, EVERYONE got that print on their faces! So we have pretty interesting sunburnt prints on our faces hahaha!!! Jingyi & I helped campcom w the cleaning up of slope so got back late to get ready for chiong nite. SPs got to finally meet & dine w one another. MAN!!! Musicunderground rocks! Ok ok it's just the R&B but still I was already hyped up on the coach there =P Martin joined us & left the next morning. Glad everything was low-keyed haha =P Anyway Bona & Rachel got selected to enter pageant. Woohoo!!!

Day 5 Break camp
Somehow, nobody was that sad or anything. Cos we had already planned 5 outings; pool party at weian's + BBQ, chalet, Sentosa, MJ, Mambo etc... & we got 2nd overall!!! Rock on!!! Had lunch at HarbourFront & planned for an impromptu water Frisbee at Weian's for the next day... 2 words: siao on...

So there u have it. The short diary of Union Camp in my perspective.

My goodness the last entry was THAT LONG AGO?!?!!
Man oh man, so much happened
okok I'll try to get them in chronological order ah...

Ok, on a consistent basis for the past 2 weeks:

Services every Sat & CGMs every Thurs w N182 (cant stand myself I can be SOOO weepy sometimes)
Tehing potential customers to reveal their company info... most of them ladies (gawd I'm turning into a homo)
MISSING OUT on Psycho's Union Camp preparation!!! ARGH!!! (Shit man... Haiz. I'm so sorry guys =(

And this week after work everyday:

Dinner w YingYing
Shangying (Kristle)'s surprise 21st bdae party thrown by her loving bf SiangAnn *will photoblog soon*
Blackout when we're going home frm Bishan
White Havanas *oh yeah*
Spiderman Premiere
"I Kissed Dating Goodbye" & "When Boy Meets Girl"

Ok more to come another day. Gtg teh more ppl.

Later.