Man... I'm so bored. Even thou I'm like meeting frens every other day... Other than that, I feel fat, bored like hell & so lifeless. Scarli I turn into one fat bitch in the hols man HAHAHA... & I cant do the contact lense roadshow cos I've tuition on Sunday mornings. Damn.

Last nite did this frens quiz shit again... this time it's Eugene's. Boring witha farking capital B & simple w a... yea u get it. Basically, put them together u get B.S. --> bullshit. I mean I scored 80 for gawd's sake. & he was like hey it takes someone to really know him well to score that high... Go review the questions lah moron... & much as I dun wan to remind u, I was once ur gf... (Told me to go create a quiz & I just say that's so boh liao dun wan. Prob I shd come up q a chim one, just to spike him that HEY ASSHOLE, YOU DONT KNOW ME ALL THAT WELL AFTER ALL!!!)
Then again, w certain redundant, unimportant, useless matters u dun wan/need to remember, u just will.

Chatted w an orgasmic-sounding hamtaro last nite hahaha... was just sharing w him views on how one feels a certain pressure to do the quiz well for good/close/best frens, frens who are expecting u to ace it prob. I mean standard common knowledge like what is the deepest desire, dream goal blah blah fine lah. But stuff that r like "What is my current fave colour?"... How relevant is my current knowledge abt u if I haven talked to u for like months man... geez. To those frens who r constantly changing their tastes, best not to waste your time w nonsense like these pls... & worse, feel disappointed if ppl do the quiz wrongly *yes Hamtaro, let's say it together now... SIAAAAAAAOOOOO*... thou they do take time off bored ppl's hands.

That issue w a certain someone is swimming in my mind man... but that's another blog for another time at someother blog. Dont think it's appropriate for that person to see here... bleh

Later.

Farking sick of farked-up ppl who expects me to tell them stuff abt myself & then turn it ard into gossip for their masses.

URGHHAAAAAHHAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll bitch in another blog. THIS one's too public & I'll definitely offend some ppl... No matter how much I wanted to offend them.

Right. Ignore me. I'm just ranting.

Beach Bum Wannabe

Not gonna happen... prob not until after the 11th May, according to my dear non-volleyball-playing fren's schedule *groan* Kinda expected that the volleyball thingy that was supposed to happen tml is postponed... ppl are naturally buay onz or into the last-minute-check-email-last-minute-reply shit...

Voice is sucky today. Yo dude, if u're reading this, just wanna let u noe that I'll be dueting Wu Ding w ya EVERYTIME we go karaokeing muahahaha!!! Putting 2 kan-tangs together who cant read fan ti zi for shit can give crazy results. I just whack any Chinese words I think sounds right... Of course not all the way lah. We're not that bad bleh. Oh, S.H.E. again for me...teehee

Stuff's bothering me. But cant blog here cos that person prob will read it. So yah... damn... wat the hell is your blog for when u cant even practise freedom of speech on it?

Freaking tired... yawning so widely & uncontrollably I wonder if it's possible for one to unhinge one's jaw by yawning... K I'm not making sense am I?



Later.

According to http://www.okcupid.com/oktest? I'm......


"The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls. "



...... which is like so true. Yeah baby, that sounds like me alrite...

Just BiTcHiNg

Ever felt like since eveyone knows u're single anyway, they just kinda take it for granted that u'll be free to have time for them? THEN they'll just "oh I haven seen my bf for damn long liao, somemore always pangseh him. I meeting him instead k. Sorry ah grl"
Wth. Wan to go then go lah. ALL the same. Can dont last min anot. Then msg so many times for wat. U dun see me doing this doing to u or anybody when I'm attached last time lor.

Eventful day... sorta. heehee

Went gym again (after being woken up by that stupid JaNehNeh abt his seating arrangement hahaha... blur cok) Shit, think my biceps r getting bigger. Gaining muscles but NOT losing fat. Damn. But mornings r starting to feel better eveytime I go gym... some psychological effect? Or just endorphins? Then again, I feel sleepy more than happy HAHAHA... Think I shd go tml morning again?

Went karaokeing w Qiuyan, Sixian & Dexter. HAHA... he must be really bored man... all in all, little off-keys here & there in duets (Dex hada hard time trying to complement my voice bleh...), great singing by Sixian (great alto voice not like my scratchy one) btw. Sang duets w Qiuyan (S.H.E. no kidding) & Dex said my voice sounds alot like Ella's... & Ah Mei's. Er... hmmm... dont think that's true. But thanks, Dex *lifts eyebrow* Reluctantly left them earlier cos gotta meet one of my best buddies.

Coffee Club's MUDDY MUDPIE's to die for... again. & again. & again...

Started borrowing books again aft gawd noes how long. For once, none of them are trashy romance novels where the heroine/damsel-in-distress/lonely-woman/horny-bitch & her hero/man-to-the-rescue/equally-lonely-man/even-hornier-bastard gets together in the end after bringing us thru their excruciatingly, painfully long stories that only bohliao ppl like me will indulge in. Oh wait. Shit. There's one, but ONLY one... tehee... or was there 2? Anyway, finally borrowed a piece of work by this Jap dude my fren introduced to me. Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami. Everything's Eventual by Stephen King too (he was pondering wats UP w him & Jap men & hairy ang mohs...)

Bought thongs... again. Think that for as long as Topshop is ard, I'll ALWAYS exit w at least 3 funky/naughty/kinky designs. Irony is that now, one of my best guy frens know my size while someone dont. Muahaha...

ARGH!!! I wanna go dancing again!!! diaoz... me not cheongster, but avid dancer... haiz...

One Boh Liao Entry

whoa... everytime stay in hall sure damn tired the next morning one lor... damn... accumulative tiredness from the exams period?

Finally stopped aching from the stupid gym workout. Hell I've become so damn weak. Last time can lift 30 pounds (I think it's pounds) on that machine & now it's only 10!!!!! Mian qiang only 20... haiz.. been slacking so much xia... ass... Cannot go on. Need to tone up so can buy that new hot bikini I've been eyeing at havanas... some kinda brown with beads detail... Either that or the other one with beads also. Both DAMN nice ah...cost ard $100 oso. Reasonable lah, considering they're frm Brazil (yes, with Brazilian-cut bottoms... does this mean I need to go for the Brazilian wax? haiz... pain xia) But I'm just worried the bottoms will get loose w regular use lor... If they can be retied ah then best. I can always tighten the straps.

But I see the amount of $$$ in my account I bu se de hua... hardearned $$$ from tuition lorz... haiz... diaoz... think I damn kiam pa HAHAHAHA!!! Fren telling me to GO BUY THE DAMN THING.. but see how lah... heh heh... *sheepish grin*

Damn hungry now man... last nite didnt eat much. Thou the banana prata w honey is heavenly. heehee

K i gtg. sheesh i browsed thru this entry & I sound SOOO bimbotic ah!!! Oh well.

Later guys.

WOOHOO!!!

P.I.M.P's cool! It's like so much more fun than those NUS bashes lor... Ppl there have nicer fashion sense, thou more bitches & GAWD, some men r SOOO sleazy!!!

Anyway, got free entry free drinks (all courtesy of Hazel *muakz* who used to work there & coup the coupons for us to REUSE!!! hahahah!!!) Musics's R&B, need I say more? HAHAH...

They segregate Devils into 2 segments, one for the event & the other for the normal customers. So we say we're the normal customers so we can enter both areas HAHAHA!!! Cool eh! Heehee... Live band there, ALSO playing R&B... woohoo... danced til legs damn tired.

Anyway, abt the sleazy ang mohs (jonash called them SAM for short hahhaaha!!!). There's this group of 4 30+ guys who look gross, danced even grosser & ogle like nobody's business... think they're taking advantage of the party. & those disgusting men who tried to show off what pathetically limited vocabulary they have even for a little pickup line... haiz... Ler-hoooooo-Ser-herrrrrrrrrrrr

But at the end of the day, I'm just glad to see the grls again. Hazel just broke up w that bastard she's been crushing on for sooo long... haiz... lost of appetite & she lost 5kg. Must say she looks grt man... somemore so tall & grt complexion. Too bad she was saying SIM guys CMI. Reminds me of the same case w that eugene. Was a freaking 43kg. Skinny & boob-less HAHAHAH!!! Thank god I gain weight again muahahaha!!!

K better get down to marking my kids' scripts. They BETTER score an A..... haiz

Later.

*P.S. Hamtaro!!! When do u wanna hang out?! hahhaaha...u noe the no to call. Sorry was sleeping that day when u called me muahaha...*

*~Dormant~*

Felt like writing a really long entry here.
Like really pour my heart out, emotions inscripted on my little flat screen.

But there's no passion... for now...

Everything happens for a reason.

But what's the meaning behind them?

Lessons to be learnt at every corner?

Or just dismissal that shit happens?

Wonder what He'll have to say to that...

Things to:

Do:
IMMEDIATE MATTERS (private)
Go to The Rock!!!
Clean up room
Friends (no not the TV show)
Grl Talk Sessions
Buddy Talk Sessions
ENJOY
Karaoke
VCD marathons
Tawning over Jie Meis' hall
Movies
Queer eyes for a straight guy
The OC (damn wat does it mean)
Smallville (shit I REALLY wanna watch ah...)
Books books books
Jazz Bars
Art
Cook
Beach
Another PT job

Venture:
Photoshop
Dreamweaver

Risk:
Heart...



Later.

So... what are we now?

Quit playing games with my heart.. literally

Sometimes u feel that u have issues
Then, come to think abt it, it's cos of something, someone, whatever, whoever
Not your average "it's my problem" kinda thing
Ever felt a sense of helplessness & a certain degree of melancholy abt it?

Cried on Monday after coming home frm the paper (which I literally smoked my way thru)
Just imagine the entire script going up in flames... bye bye GEM2007 Political Economy Of Housing
Issues w their probable consequences building up within me
Shocked me for a while w how I'd conveniently push these thots at the back of my head
Only to have them coming back in one huge rush to wallop me
when I least expect them to
wth...

One of the issues, I'm more concerned with the fundamental sense of well-being
The state of being happy
Of which I'm not.
Not now.
& probably, from what I can see if things go on this way, not anytime near in the future.
I'm not talking abt being carefree
Cos u nvr will be, technically speaking

Prob thinking too much
Back to work


Later

So many songs... bringing back so many past feelings...
Listening to Baby Bash's sugar sugar... some kinda bittersweet feeling
Cant pinpoint wat causes it exactly, not going to dwell on it
Guess it's the same with smells

One sniff & U'll be transported back to the past.
Whether u want to or not...


Later.

It's amazing the amt of things u wan to forget... & could...
SO tell me why the exception for childish little incidences where love is on the line?

Hints just speak volumes, it's just a matter of whether u really listen or not.

Later

This is so irritating
Missing someone on & off the WHOLE darn day

It'll be like so much more comforting to know that he's missing me too
But knowing him, he'll prob be mugging like hell
Something which I shd be doing at any rate

Later

Happened to chance across the msn history of Xiao Tu & I in some word document (saved that time when msn prompted me to delete/clear it)...

Loads of silly little phrases...
Silly little phrases that I dun recall typing
Silly little words that I cant believe we Xchanged
Silly little sentences that speak volumes of how much I loved him then
Silly little promises, silly little plans, silly little ideas
That all seem to fade away with what love I have for him

When u've gotten over someone, does it necessarily mean that u've forgotten abt the past happy moments u shared w him? Seems like the case for if he's the one who hurt me... But not so if it's the other way around. I wonder why...

Incredible how one can feel so loveless for a person whom one loved with all one's heart just half-a-year ago...
How one can feel nothing when one hears abt news regarding him.
How one can even talk to him as if he's some ordinary fren with whom u shared no past.

www.nobodyhere.com is SOOO addictive!!!

Damn interactive xia...
kinda wish I know Dreamweaver so I can do something cool like that.

Martin & Ann're gonna teach me Photoshop.
Can finally erase all my horrible zits
THEN I'll go load them up here muahaha
(my zit-less photos lah! NOT the zits *diaoz*)

Hell
think I better go back to work

Talk abt lack of passion for my studies

sighz...

Whoa eye-opener. U learn something new EVERYDAY...

Kinda got an insight into Ernest's life. He has this highly ingenius fren. Freakingly ingenius I may add. Then again, u can say "so who hasnt heard of bastards like that?" hahaha... But really, eye-opener like I said. & he seems normal & leads a well-balanced life. THEN again, looks r deceiving. hmmm...

Life's pretty boring now. Study, try not to sleep, study, try not to sleep.

Later.

feel so tired... haiz...
like WAAAAAAAAAY tired
finally can login to sch's system
*phew* thot something wrong somewhere.

I'm going to watch Passion of the Christ again. BUT not until I go for Bible study classes.

Which means I really need to go find a church to go to.
With someone I'm close to
To a church that's very accessible
Where there're no pushy ppl ard

Hmmm......