Hey sweetie (U noe who u are),

There's no point in regret ok? Move on, like me. Nobody wants this to happen, all we can hope for is that it doesnt happen AGAIN... & I think it wont cos U wont allow it.
Then again, ppl say it's ok to regret. This way U learn your lesson. I hope u find peace in watever choice u decide on. The thing is, stop beating yourself over it. It's over.

Have faith in yourself & hold on to your values & morales. They may not seem to be all that "right" (f*ck cares who defines them as being right anyway) but hey, they'll at least protect u (@ least that's wat mine did) until the time when u feel strong enuff to make your own stand abt certain issues.

Shit happens to all of us. No matter wat degree of seriousness this is, wat counts is the aftermath: how it affects u & how u deal with it. Nonchalance will only tide u over this far. It's easy to hold a strong front... but u'll crack one day. Trust me man... been there, done that. Not pretty. Haiz.

& the most beautiful thing abt this is that U present your broken self to God. It may seem like everyone, who converted to Christianity cos some shit happened, r taking Him for granted, using Him. But hey, that's the beauty of it (presenting your broken self to God I mean), so I'm told. & u noe, sometimes, it's only at your most melancholic moments that great things happen: U composing that tune =) & being able to FINALLY see the picture. In that, u're already "growing". Issnt this that "something good" u're talking abt? U'll definitely see more grt stuff - Just "open" your eyes & pay a little more attention to the details. God has prob given u an ans: U just have to seek it out. Seek & U'll find. Sounds familiar? =)

Just my 2cents worth aft reading ur blog. Also U seem disturbed when we met up yesterday... esp at the playground. Last words: identify wat u want & go for it. If what u're doing now is not wat u want in the long term, stop it now. Before u get hurt... any further. It's just not worth it when there's no hope of that thing (u noe wat I mean) developing.

I'm done here. Chill yah. Love u.