Met up with SY, LY, CL, BY, ZZ, YT, TF, BS & YH for dinner today at Kenny Rogers. Damn tired after only 2 hours of sleep (came home at 5am, slept at 6am woke up at 8am this morning =( Oh had a date w N =) Ate at BBOSS. He got me the Save the Last Dance soundtrack!!! So touched!!! Then watched Ju-On 2 & watched the fireworks at Esplanade before we headed on down the waterfront to chat til 4am. Met Yongqiang & N's clique halfway thou haha!!! Poor N kana chided for pang-sehing them haha!!! Sent me home in a taxi aft chatting) CL told me not to give him the wrong idea, send the wrong signals. Hell, if I'm interested in a guy, even if I dont want him to know, he'll definitely sense it man. Trust me... Anyway, jus hope N doesnt think too much.

I'm like sooo not into relationships now. Cant find stability in love, why should I get myself & another guy involved. Sorry guys, this is one single & unavailable grl. I'm really trying to find myself. Being single allows me more freedom to explore my different facets, find more flaws, understand myself more. I've grown & learnt. I'm appreciating frens more. I'm hanging out more than ever with them now & I feel honoured that when a few of them encounter problems, I'm the 1st one they turn to seek advise, a shoulder to cry on, comfort & yeah, criticism.

Anyway M joined us later. & he brought the mag w Eugene's photo in it. The photo shoot Eugene did for his fren? That one. Anyway, the front cover featured him laughing. Laughing like how he rarely do so except w his close frens or one of those rare outbursts. One could never guessed that after that, we met up & 3 hours later, broke up. Laughing... like how everything was ok.

Read his profile in the mag... wat he said... Smiled. It's so him... Him all over that one page... Damn, why am I having this weird feeling (no it's not self-denial, I really cant pin-point this) Shit, now I really don't want to go to school on Monday. Is the mag appearing a sign? Haiz... I just want a peace of mind, WHY IS THIS SO HARD TO ATTAIN?!?!?